Thursday, January 27, 2011
I remembered ... about 7yrs ago .. Mom went for her major op .. it was suppose to be 4-5hrs of procedure but at the end ... it took her 12hrs! I remember that morning when we wheeled Mom into the operating theater .. it was not a pleasant experience which am sure all of us would not like to go thru .... we prayed for Mom and told her that we cannot be in with her but God can, Jesus is holding her hands and she is surrounded by His angels. Thank God that the surgeon is a Christian and she was much comforted when he actually prayed for her before they started the procedure for her.
Then, SM, KC, Ong and I waited outside the operating theater for Mom to be wheeled out. There were a few other families in the waiting area as well ... we waited and waited ... non of us had any appetite to eat .... we just waited ... and prayed in our hearts ... non of us had any mood for anything else cos it was a very tensed situation cos we knew that Mom was on the operating table .... we were not in control .... anything can happen ... even if the op is successful.
We waited from morning till evening ... and Mom is till not out ... all other families already had their member out of the operating theater .. its really very tensed when you see another family leaving that area knowing that the member who went in came out well ...
We started to panic as dusk sets in .. as clock kept ticking and no sign of Mom .... and there was no other people in the waiting area except SM, KC,Ong and I .... the silence is deafening .. non of us spoke any word but panic, fear and anxiety was written all over our face ... in fact, we dare not speak, least speak our fear and set us all of a panic mode ... in our hearts, we were praying very hard ... crying out to God for His mercy ... in our hearts, we could hear the sound of the clock ticking ... Ong commented that the situation was so tensed that it was almost like what we watch in the movies ... we had life experience of it ....
Then, suddenly .... we saw the doctor coming out! He gave us news .... and we waited for while.... we saw Mom wheeled out .. SM and I was so relieved and SM just ran to Mom .... initially the Dr did not want us to see Mom yet and asked us to wait cos Mom was weak due to the lost of blood .... but eventually we saw Mom ....
The burden of fear and anxiety was lifted .... God was faithful to us ... God answered our cries and saw us thru a situation of battling with life ... indeed He was faithful and true to His promise (Psalms 23 : 4) : to God be the glory!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Just as I was having these thoughts, news broke that CC is having breast CA and will be going for op tomorrow ... WOW ... this is a big blow to us ... or to me as I count ... she is the 6th person in our family (Yu side) who is attacked by CA, 4 of Mom's generation, 1 from our generation and 1 from the my next generation .... its going be the 1st CNY CC going to spent away from kampong in the past 10yrs (I think) she's been back serving in Spore .. and its really the 1st CNY she's going to be spending not preparing anything for CNY but herself to regain her physical health.
Every CNY, CC will have open house for students ... and every year, I (as her student off cos ... and an international student in TTC) will go to her house for CNY .. she will prepare LOTS of cookies, CNY goodies like nian kau and a huge pot of scallop rice porridge (its the best!) .... and sometimes ang chew mi suah ...
30th day lunch ... I have been changing my routine past few years -- sometimes sister's place ... think there was once in Dad's place ... this year ... I have not thought of it yet ... 1st day ... I will start cooking ... light ... cos the real CNY will start when SM gets home .... then, we will start cooking major .... like real reunion dinner .. I used to say that my CNY only starts on 2nd day when SM comes home ... and when Dan & Lyn were younger, it was even more fun cos then the older cousins will come over and play fire crackers with them (supplied by Ong2 piu-win) ... o yea ... one CNY, we had Ong's wedding ... that was a biz CNY .. :0 ...
We will also have the huge Yu family gathering in 6th Uncle's house on 2nd day CNY .... the tradition changed since 6th uncle has left us. Our family over in Yvr ... Kor and Nee Chia will fon to wish all of us Happy CNY ... and though they have to hold their CNY meal till the weekend since CNY is just any other ordinary day for them ... Mom and Dad gets excited receiving their call this time of the year ...
So ... this CNY is a gentle reminder to me that its really God's grace that I can still celebrate it with Mom and Dad .... it's really great that our family is still together ... healthy ... its really God's grace that we still have one another ... so, its a time to appreciate family ... one another ... take time to enjoy one another and make special effort to create memories so that we can still carry them in our hearts when one of us leaves ....
This CNY ..datang-la beramai ke rumah Nguima/Ama .... let's just enjoy each other and take photos ... as memories .... OK .. take pix and "fellowship" ... this year, there is additional member in our family ... Wesley Pang ... super cute .. sure kena "dera" by "old" aunties and young "uncles and aunties" :0 .... Its an honor to cook for my family who enjoys my cooking ... only hope that I can adjust the taste well since I have not cooked for a long time ... :0 ...
Friday, January 21, 2011
When we reached Chinatown, the 3 of us had great time just walking around, taking photos ... Pris bought bak-wa and egg tarts for her parents and family .... Li had a bird pooed on her hair while we were busy posing for a shot .. I went all crazy clicking my camera away and when I wanted to take a nice shot ... Li .... kept asking me to stretch my neck to make sure I am "in" the pix ... ?? I ended up having "camel necked" photos ... those were the days ...
So, yesterday I went into Spore to re-live the sweet memory ... Pris was sweet .. she took the afternoon off for me. Picked her up from Yishun and we parked at Zion St as I was still not too sure of the road ... and was trying to avoid ERP ... anyway ... I clicked my camera this time .. Li asked ... why all food pix ... no people ...
Just felt that yesterday's experience was entirely different from last year. Even the mood, feeling and decos were different. Chinatown was not as packed as last year, there were less decos and flowers this year ...
The precious reminder is .... sweet memories are to be created ... we have to be deliberate in creating special moments so that went the season or time is over, there will be sweet memories and photos to keep us company and treasure. Next, what is gone is gone ... time and season will pass .. its very difficult to re-live the past ... so, let's forget what's behind, and press forward towards the heavenward call the Christ has given us! (Phil 3: 13b - 14.) " ..... But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
Finally, I thank God for every person that He had made my path-cross ... though we may be apart, I know in my heart that there were moments that was ceated that will bring a smile on our faces as we recall God given moments we had in our lives .. the fun, the fellowship ... the laughter .. the times we prayed and supported one another ... the tears and struggles but through it all ... He had blessed us .. with one another somewhere along our journey here ...
Thank you for your fellowship & partnership ....
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Guess God brought "To Save a Life" to prepare me to face a teen who struggles with handling pain of growing up, pain in life and when circumstance becomes intense ... cutting seem to a temporal way out .... hence, I decided to google and read up a little bit more of this culture that embraces this current generation. This is really a entire new generation, new breed of special people that the method used to handle my nieces and nephews will NOT work .... only by God's grace and leading of the Holy Spirit that I am able to help them .... Anyway, I read up some info so that I can understand their situation better and I compile a few articles into mine (eg from : http://eqi.org/cutting1.htm, http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/20842/teenagers_and_cutting_what_you_should_pg2.html?cat=25, http://www.teen-beauty-tips.com/teenage-cutting.html )
Lord have mercy on this generation!
What is Cutting?
Teenage Cutting is a form of self injury that involves deliberately inflicting wounds and cuts on ones body. It is a serious issue and its victims are held captive in a very dark and lonely cell. Most people who self injure are not trying to commit suicide and are not crazy. They just don’t know how to deal with what’s going on in the inside of them, where as a physical wound is something they can see and gives them something to tend to. They see the physical pain as easier to cope and deal with.
Teens that self injure will feel as if they are nothing, that they don’t matter and that no one cares for them or what they are going through. They have a hard time expressing their emotions because the enemy has made them feel ashamed and they cut themselves in an attempt to deal with other problems they are having – to them it is a release.
Yes, to its victims cutting releases tension, stress, and anger, to some it is a release for everything. If they are having a bad day or if they feel they have messed up cutting can make everything feel ok and they can stop beating themselves up about it. Besides providing a release cutting will sometimes offer an atonement making them feel as if they have punished themselves for what they did or how they feel.
For those experiencing self-hatred touching their wound will remind them of what they have done and that they are not allowed to hate themselves. Their feelings and guilt will seem to float out on the blood leaving them feeling calm. The scars will often help them to feel like their pain is real. To them it is like a battle scar reminding them that they have been through something and no one can tell them otherwise. When they hurt enough to injure themselves it means they were in emotional pain. Deep inside many hide pain. I encourage anyone experiencing these feelings to call to the Lord and He will answer; Cry out to help from Him and He will say, Here I Am (Isaiah 58:9 )
I also want to express that you are not alone. You are never alone, that’s just what Satan wants you to believe.
Who is Impacted?
Self injury does not discriminate and self injurers come from all walks of life. People who harm themselves can be male, female, straight, gay, or bisexual; they can be doctors, high-school dropouts or high-school students; rich, poor or from any country in the world. Self injury is an addiction that affects 3 million Americans, 2 million of whom purposely cut or burn themselves. Teenage cutting begins at the average age of 14, in fact 90% of self injurers start at roughly this age.
More than half of self injurers are victims of abuse, and most report emotionally abusive or neglectful childhoods. The most common adult injurers are in the profession of are teacher, nurse and manager.
But "God is your hiding place: He will protect you from trouble and surround you with songs of deliverance." Psalm 32:7Why Teens Cut
Teenagers cut to stop their emotional pain
Teens cut to stop their emotional pain. This is the most honest and direct way to say it. We have worked with self-harming teens for over ten years. We have learned beyond any doubt that they cut to stop their emotional and psychological pain. They come from emotionally abusive homes and environments. These homes and environments, including their schools, cause them to suffer emotional pain and cutting is a form of temporary relief.
Many people say cutting is to "get attention" but this is a common myth about cutting. Most teens who cut, for example, actually wear long sleeve shirts because they don't want others to know they are cutting. They feel embarrassed about it or guilty for doing it. They often feel very self-critical about it. Below is the case of Michelle, a teen who tried to hide her scars.
Michelle would cut herself in hidden places. For example, she would cut herself on the top of her legs. She did not want attention. She wanted to to be left alone and to be free. But she was raised in a very controlling environment, including home and school. She had also been sexually abused, physically abused and emotionally abused..
"Cutting was because I needed to get back into my life. You sink into this place where you can't think or feel, you don't know what you're doing. My brain, subconsciously, would tell me that's what I had to do to get out of the horrible hell I would snap into. Cutting yourself is pain and blood and living, and it's taking away the pain of being this empty person." Claire, 17Few of us have been so hungry that we have actually been in physical pain. But we have all heard of hunger pains. For teens who cut themselves, their emotional pain is much more intense than for the average person. It is a intensity of pain that many of us have never felt, just as we have never felt the pain of intense starvation. But these people are starving emotionally. Looking at it this way might help us understand what they need and why they cut.
The Sources of Their Emotional Pain - Feelings Which Represent Unmet Emotional Needs
Emotional pain, for all of us, comes when have we have extreme levels of unmet emotional needs. We all find our own ways to cope with this pain.
As adults we have many legal and healthy coping mechanisms. On one website I saw a list of alternatives to cutting. Some of these included: going for a drive, going shopping, calling a friend, going for a walk.
Many of these options are unavailable to adolescents, though.
Many of these adolescents are not allowed to use the phone at certain times, either because it is too late at night, or because they have been punished for some reason and "grounded" from using the phone. Some do not have telephones in their houses. Even if they could use the phone, many of them are afraid to call the crisis lines because their parents might hear them. Unless you have lived in a home full of fear, it is probably hard to imagine that such homes exist. But I have talked to enough adolescents now to know that they do exist. This is one reason I urge us all to start talking to children and find out what they are afraid of. If they are afraid of their own parents when they are young, it is a warning sign for later on.
Many of the adolescents are not allowed to outside when they most need to get out of the house. Normally they feel the urge to cut when it is late at night. This is when they feel most alone, and perhaps most afraid. For some, even if they could go outside, they have no where to go where they feel safe. Nor can they simply go shopping whenever they want, especially not at night. Obviously, most of them can not go for a drive.
One of their sources of pain, then, is simply feeling trapped; of not having options.
A list of their painful feelings includes:
Feeling not listened to
Feeling uncared about
Human Emotional Needs
Here are some of the basic human emotional needs expressed as feelings. While all humans share these needs, each differs in the strength of the need, just as some of us need more water, more food or more sleep.
One person may need more freedom and independence, another may need more security and social connections. When a person's natural emotional needs are met, healthy behavior naturally follows.
In various degrees, each according to his or her own unique nature, we each have a natural emotional need to feel:
Signs and Symptoms
One huge sign of cutting is wearing long sleeved shirts and jeans in warm weather. Although cutting may appear in some circles as the ‘cool thing to do' it is something a troubled teenager will go to great lengths to hide from their parents and friends.
The most obvious sign is of course scars on your child. The most common areas teenagers cut themselves in on the arms, legs and the belly. They lines can be any length and in any number. Some will cut the same spot repeatedly while others cover large areas of skin.
Cutters will generally change their everyday behavior. They will become more withdrawn and secretive. They may avoid changing clothes for gym class or trying on clothes in front of parents or friends. Their grades and social life will suffer as well.
Self-Injury Help - How to deal with Teenage
Self injury is a cycle. Not only is it a way to release emotions, but it can also become a physical addiction as well. That is one reason it can be so hard to quit. Some who have been involved in self injury say they actually feel physical withdrawals when trying to stop.
Therefore, like drugs and alcohol, self injury can become an addiction. And as you could have guessed there are better ways to deal with troubles than self-injury cutting and although cutting can be a difficult pattern to break, it is possible. With God all things are possible. (Matthew 19:26)
The First Step...
The first step with any addiction is to admit you have a problem and need help. I encourage you to come to God and ask for His help. Cry out to Him and share your pain with Him. You may need to ask for forgiveness.... and don't forget about forgiving yourself as well. However, don't allow the enemy to get you caught up in a cycle of shame and feeling bad about yourself. True guilt is different from shame. Shame says, "I'm a bad person" and that's not true. You are loved by God no matter what you've done or what's been done to you. Once you're ready to make a change, you have to decide if you're willing to change directions.
The hardest step is telling someone. This will take courage but once you find someone you trust and confide in them you will feel a great sense of relief. If verbally telling someone is too difficult you can always write a note. If the person you tell doesn’t offer assistance, tell someone else. Adults have the tendency to downplay issues and problems often classifying it as just a phase. There are people who will listen.
Who can you tell? Here are some ideas of who you can talk to:
- Your parents,
- Youth pastor,
- School counselor,
- School teacher
- Trusted friend
Trying to figure out the cause of cutting yourself may be tough...
- Is it anger?
- Pressure to be perfect?
- Relationship trouble?
- A painful loss or trauma?
- Mean criticism or mistreatment?
Many people have trouble figuring this part out on their own. But there is no shame in getting professional help to overcome the problem- this does not mean that you are weak! Therapists and counselors are trained to help people discover inner strengths that help them heal. These inner strengths can then be used to cope with life's other problems in a healthy way. There are also churches that offer prayer, encouragement and support groups. The Lord will guide your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Work on it, there is a lot to dealing with past hurts and finding better ways to handling life’s stresses. Once you identify what triggers your urge to cutting yourself, make a commitment to make the decision, a promise to yourself that you will not follow through with it but replace it with something else instead. Make plans on what this will be so it’s place for the next time you feel the need.
Urges will pass if you wait them out. The more you wait without giving in, the more your urges will decrease over time so try distracting yourself with something – call a friend, take a shower, play with a pet. Walking is a great way to help with any depression and other forms of exercise provide releases from tension.
You may also try writing poetry or drawing, these are great ways to get the feelings on the inside out and that’s the goal. You are on a mission to find a new, healthy release to replace the painful, hurtful one you’ve grown accustomed to. Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him. (Psalm 126:5-6)What Is Not Helpful
- Ordering them to stop it.
- Watching them.
- Taking away their privacy. (Taking the door off of their room, etc.)
- Taking away their razors and all sharp objects.
- Making them feel even more abnormal by saying things like, "You need help. You are sick. That is not normal."
- Rejecting that part of them. Not accepting their behavior.
- Threatening them - such as with being sent to the hospital.
An email just came in to inform me that one very close to my family is diagnose with early stage of cancer .... and this brings to mind of the movie that I bought last week -- Letters to God.
This is a true story of a small boy, Tyler ... perhaps 8-10yrs old who has brain cancer. He lives with his widowed Mom and teen brother. This family had to deal with two types of death - one unpredicted or unknown -- their father who died suddenly and now .. this boy ... who faces death -- time and end of the journey is almost known ... how then one prepares to face death?
Tyler seems to be prepared to face death -- with God ... he could sense his own time is coming to an end .... guess, it is God's grace on this boy as he deals with the issue of death ...
Tyler expresses his thoughts by writing letters to God and putting it into his house mailbox. The local postman picks it up and is asked by his boss to "deal" with it .... The letters is addressed God are prayers for the many people in Tyler's life --- be it his family members, neighbors or school mate who is nasty to him. Simple act done ... but he impacted his entire community, from the youngest to the oldest .... by writing letters to God ... an act of praying to God expressed in letter form ... the local postman reads his letters and begin to send the letter out to the person that the prayer was offered ...
How will you live your life if you know that you have 8 months to live? How will your relationship be with a person in your life if you know that the person has only 4 more months to live? Cc tells me that many times God uses sickness and death to speak to us, to give us opportunities to deal with issues in our lives and issues in the relational dynamics ... especially in the family .... what is God speaking to you in the situations of your life now?
Our God is alive today ... does hears our prayers, our cries and will answer our prayers ... My letter to my Good : dear God, I pray for Your mercy and healing hands to intervene and touch this close contact of ours and heal our precious contact in Jesus name .... Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever more .. the God of Abraham and Moses is at work ... may His will be done on earth as it is in heaven! Amen!
Watch the movie trailer at : http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi182715417/
We decide of we want to enter into a relationship ... if we want to accept the love that is offered by the other party or to reject it .... it is a decision that one makes ... and stay by it because when the feeling of love is thin or gone ... the choice and decision to love have to take over ... that will make the love last and remain ... and sometimes ... cause love to to fall in love all over again ....
So ... my statement in my FB today just remind me of what love is ... it a choice that we make daily to live out 1 Cor 13 .....
"Love is a choice that one makes on a daily basis ... a choice to b patient, kind, not envy or jealous or boastful,not proud. It is a choice not to b rude or self seeking.. & a choice not to keep record of wrongs. It is a choice not to be happy when we see evil but to rejoice in the truth. It is a choice to protect, trust, hope & persevere (1 Cor 13:4-7) .. what is the love choice that you need to make today?"
Monday, January 17, 2011
I heard of 2 great movies that is quite new on the shelf .... and great for teens ... saw them in SKS and its expensive ... sin currency. When I saw them in Arise Shine last Tue, I immediately bought them .....
One of the movies that I bought ... To Save A Life .... I cried my eyes out .. it was so touch and real ... Have been working with teen past 6mths .... and I find that teens now is living in a total different era when I grew up .. it was harder and tougher just to grow up in such environment .. there is so much more "expose" and explosion of all sorts of things ... its like what I was facing and dealing with growing up .... now its blasted 10x even more and 100x even more things that one teen need to handle ...
And this movie shows a slice of the reality that teen struggle with - teen suicide, teen depression, teen's struggle with acceptance, rejection ... and community / friends to chill and to cry with .... dating ... how to ask a girl out .... teens struggle with temptations -- drugs ... sex... drinking .... pregnancy .... teens struggling to hand the pains that the face ..... cutting ... parents fighting ... divorce .... then .. the issue of what next ... what is the next step to take in one's life .. which path .... what if the path is closed because of an expected incident cos of a mistake ... pregnant .... what will a teen do with "religion"? How would Jesus make a difference?
Its a MUST watch movie for all age group .... of it has a message for all ..... it was a reminder for me how difficult for teens just to grow up -
For adults .. think we should not be quick to impose our ways, values and mind set on them .. thinking that we know best ... and it will be the best way ... but truly just to journey with the teens around us by helping them to seek God and see things through God's perspective ... and to listen to them ....
This is more than just a movie ... watch it for yourself .....
Michael W Smith is one of my favorite gospel singers ... I just come across this song .... its released in 2006 but I just discovered it ... speaks my heart ... how sin may turn our hearts into stone .... where there is sin, there is pain ... there is hurt .... and shame .. it is s easy for us to forget what Jesus did for us on the Cross .... yes .. we need Jesus be lifted up in our lives ... above ourselves, our old nature .... our situations .... may Jesus be lifted high that when people see me ... they don't see me but Jesus ....
So, enjoy this song .... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lW0QJfcmqYQ&feature=autoplay&list=QL&index=6&playnext=3
Sin and its ways grow old
All of my heart turns to stone
And I'm left with no strength to arise
how You need to be lifted high
Sin and its ways lead to pain
Left here with hurt and with shame
So no longer will I leave Your side Jesus,
You'll be lifted high
You'll be lifted high
You'll be lifted high
You'll be lifted high in my life
Oh God And I fall to my knees
So it's You that they see
Not I Jesus,
You'll be lifted high
And even now that I'm inside Your hands
Help me not to grow prideful again
Don't let me forsake sacrifice Jesus
You'll be lifted high
And if I'm blessed with the riches of kings
How could I ever think that it was me
For You brought me from darkness to light Jesus,
You'll be lifted high
You'll be lifted high
You'll be lifted high
You'll be lifted high in my life Oh God
And I fall to my knees
So it's You that they see
Not I Jesus,
You'll be lifted high
Oh Jesus, You'll be lifted high
Oh You'll be lifted high
And I fall to my knees
So it's You that they see
Not I Jesus,
You'll be lifted high
Sunday, January 9, 2011
So, I started to challenge HH and LC .. the brothers have been real supportive of the idea ... immediately they say yes and volunteered to help up in the various sections of camp planning. M so thankful that God gave me a great team to work with ... together we prayed and seek the Lord ... so, set .. we agreed on the theme, objectives and the estimated participants ... LC immediately called up the bus to book it .. he is super fast in his work ... :0 ... HH gave lots of input and suggestions to the program of the camp ... both HH and I belong to the same generation. We recall how blessed we were by the various MYF, FES camps that we had attended and have the same passion to impart this to the youth .. it was the camps of our teens and varsity days that impacted and formed our lives.
Along the path of planning, we had to overcome lots of challenges ... first was the date for the camp ... it was a long ding-dong process cos we needed to set for a date after SPM and its SPM ended late this year .... settling the date was core cos without the date we cannot book the venue or start publicity .... then, from quite a positive response from the youth coming for the camp, suddenly there was only 2 who wants to come ... all say cos this this person not coming, I dont want to come ... etc ... CL and HH thinks that I am crazy to book a whole bus, 44seaters ...
All these initial challenges brought us desperate on our knees to pray for the camp, for God to lead us and sort it out for us .... we realise that God was in charge .. we just need to out our trust in Him and discern what He wants us to to
God really send angels to help me all the way for the camp ... I cannot sing or lead worship in Mandarin ... He provided me worship leaders, I cannot play any musical instruments ... He provided musicians .. He send LQin to be the extra hands and feet during the camp and helped me run the entire games and orientation session. When I needed translators .. He sent me few angels who was willing to output in a short time frame ... the camp was smacked between NChia's visit ... I was all over Msia ... and God knew that I could not handle the sessions ... He provided the camp speaker for us ... :0 :0 ... miracle after miracle .... He knows our needs and will provide them .. The word that sum up the entire process : His grace that make all things possible.
At the end, when we were all set to go .. God gave us 23 camps, out of which, 8 were pre-believers!
In the camp ... wohooooo!!! The youths had great fun, they were so sporting ... and supportive in participating every session ... they also had bonded well during them camp and I hope that the friendship made will carry them a long way in their journey ... we had great sessions .. from my tiny talks among them - many was challenged ... the campfire night turned out well cos the Holy Spirit showed up ministering, challenging and touching the youth ... in the 6 prayer stations (something that I have enjoyed during DOP in TTC ... and preparing it reminded me of the days when we prepared for DOP in TTC .. working with Jeng who has wild crazy ideas --- bringing a coffin and setting up as one of the prayer station!!!) ... and most of all ... God gave us the best weather ... totally no rain ... it rained every day in JB when we were away ... :0 .. isn't God amazing!
During the camp ... there were still challenges for me ... I was in charged of the campfire night and when I set up the stations, I discovered that my things went missing ... my majong paper was used by the team to the magical stick for the angel they try to dress up ... thank God that HH was willing to be creative in making our own majong paper ... by taping perhaps 16pcs of A4 paper together at the back, my tea candles went M.I.A. too ... but thank God I found them in the front of the hall ... :0 ... God was in charge ....
All I can say is : To God be the glory ... from nothing to something ... I am humbled to know that I am only His vessel, His instrument .... as I avail myself to do what the Father wants me to do ... He will do the rest! Without God, the entire plan and trip is meaningless and empty ... Holy Spirit is the person whom we must bring along with us ...
The greatest joke of the camp : I bought salt instead of sugar to boil barley and green pea. O man!!! That was how "excited" I was before and during the camp!